Thank You!

Well it is almost bed time on Sunday night. The end of what was a wonderful weekend. I was fortunate enough to spend Saturday and Saturday night with Mr. “tumbling dice” himself. Its always a pleasure for me to share time with him no matter how much or how little we do. If the man is not good for anything else he can damn sure cook. He made some of his famous “skettie” for me finally after asking him to for the last 2 yrs..lol.. And let me tell you guys it was well worth the wait. Everything has been well worth the wait, just wish I would have not had to wait for so long. Its all good and everything happens for a reason. I take advantage of every ounce he allows me and appreciate it beyond what I think anyone realizes including him. So anyway if you ever pass by and take a gander at what I come on and rattle about from time to time, I want to thank you for everything. I’m not sure you realize what you mean to me and how special I think you and your baby girl are, I only hope one day you will see it pouring from my soul.

Well tomorrow is going to be an interesting day for me. I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 in the morning. I am finally going to get my tubes tied or as my 12 yr old says, get spayed ….lol.. Can you tell he was raised around dogs? Well none the less, he will be the only off spring I will ever have biologically and this is not a bad thing for me. He is growing up so fast but it is so wonderful to see. It just amazes me sometimes when I look at him, seems like yesterday he was still a baby. He was a wonderful baby once we got him on some good milk, but I’m just not the kind of person that wants a house full of kids or a baby around all the time. I don’t feel like this makes me a bad mother or a less nurturing mother, maybe just a more realistic one. I am very well aware of the fact that I am not capable of raising another child financially. I also know that I’m not just real fond of how this world seems to be turning and the direction a lot of things go in. I just don’t think the world needs me to bring another human being into it to go though the shit that so many live in daily. I feel like I am very fortunate to live how I do. I can feed my boy and we don’t go without anything we need. We are far from being well off, I’m just a poor white girl that bust her ass daily to make ends meet, but I’m proud to say that I don’t require assistance from the federal government to live day to day. So many people get caught up in the drugs which leads to crime which will inevitably lead to jail. So many babies are born in that cycle and they don’t know anything but that life. What a sad existence that must be. There are the few that seems to fall through the cracks of the cycle and can get out of it. I don’t down or judge anyone that has had trouble in the past, if anything it makes them more of a person than the ones like me that has always had life basically very simple and easy. Anyone that can bring themselves out of that and prosper deserves nothing but praise. Well I guess I will wrap this up for the night. I hope everyone has a wonderful week…

Thought of the day:

When we search
For answers, angels
Help us tap into
Our souls.

Sir, I love you.


God bless you all

Gem ;)