Unanswered questions

As it drifts into the evening hours of a Sunday afternoon, I’m setting here listening to some really awesome original music. Its always a pleasure to hear, but sometimes it reaches a little deeper into my soul. Today and basically the entire weekend has been wasted away. I will be glad to go back to work tomorrow actually. My mind has been doing way to much drifting and thinking for its own good the past few days. It takes me back to a time in my life that I wish not to visit. It has been a cool day, guess that fall has finally arrived. This is one of my most favorite times of the year, but it seems the cold today has kept me chilled to the bone. Maybe tomorrow I will wake up in a different state of mind and I can get my life back into its normal routine and feel like I have a place and purpose. I have been looking for it today, but yet to find it still. It was pointed out that I am basically doing it all to myself, which I guess might be true, I just have to pray that tomorrow will being a brighter day. It never fails to amaze me how I let emotion control every part of my being. Well I will not continue to whine about how things are not going how I wish they would, for I know it is very unbecoming of anyone. A lady I always try to be, but sometimes I fall and find it difficult to bring myself back to my feet.

I hope everyone has had a blessed weekend. I’m going to close it out with a little bit I wrote. Maybe it can be called a free form poem, I’m not really sure. That is not an area that I am real versed on. Its just a bunch of mumbo jumbo basically that floats around in my head that I put into words and attempted to give form.

A love so true

By Gem


In the depths of my soul lays a love greater than most men have ever known.
The ultimate gift that so many never have the chance to experience.
How do we choose who we give this precious gift to.
What makes one person superior over the rest.
So many questions and so few answers.
Why can we not choose who our heart loves
When will I realize it will never be appreciated and given back in the ways it should.
A gift so precious must be cherished and cared for
Tended like a garden and allowed to prosper and grow into the most beautiful love ever seen
Anyone that is ever been offered such a wonderful thing should honor it with all his being
Because a love so true is not meant for just anyone
A love so true is only meant for you.

You know I will always love you unconditionally with all my heart and soul. the question is do I have the strength to cope with you?


May God bless you all

Gem ;)