Bikes,baseball and blues...does life get any better?

Well I’m proud to report that I made it through last week with out falling out. Last Thursday was the all dreaded inventory that I have spoken of a few times in the past month or so. Our numbers came back and we actually done very very well. It has been a very stressful time for me in all areas of my life for the past couple of months. Most of the time I don’t understand even though I strive to so dearly. All I can do is keep telling myself it all happens for a reason and have faith.
Yesterday was a very exciting day for me. I went to a friends house and got to ride my official soon to be motorcycle for the first time. It was so awesome. The first time I had ever driven a bike, only rode on one once before. And with the first time riding I had my first wreck…lol.. Needless to say nothing was broken, just some loss of skin and a few sore muscles and some new color…lol..but its all good. I got up and picked it back up and got on and took off again. I’m sure I will have many more spills before its all said and done with. My friend was watching me and he was like, ok now woman your getting just a little to brave there. It is going to take lots of practice but I know I can do it or die trying. This is something I have been very interested in for a long time, I figure its about time for me to stop setting back watching everyone else and get in the middle of it myself. If God feels it is time to take me then he will no matter what I’m doing. Then yesterday evening I went riding with my uncle for a couple of hours. We was clocking right along and I was thinking, damn it seems like we are going fast, I looked and well he was bouncing between 90 and 95 and I was thinking, ok this would explain why it feels like we are going so fast. It is a total trip and I can understand how it can get into your blood so easily. I just cant wait till I can get out and do my own thing. I am suppose to take my riding class next weekend, but my son informed me that we may have a ballgame in Tulsa this next weekend and if that is the case then I will have to put off my school for another time. Should find out in a couple of days what will be going on and I will take it from there.

We had our first baseball tournament this past weekend. My son is on two different teams which I think I have mentioned in the past. Well it so happened both teams was playing in the tournament and we thought we would be able to swing both teams until they came against one another…we found out the night before we could only play on one team so he chose his travel team, which is his team from school. They did really well the first two games but lost the third. Blake, which is not a pitcher, pitched 3 innings and done awesome. He didn’t give up any runs, he struck 4 out and only walked one. It is amazing how far he comes every year. I did get some good pictures of him that I will try and attach. Hope you all like.

I guess I will wrap this up for now. I would like to share with you some lyrics from a very beautiful song. I love music from one end of the spectrum to the other, but my heart seems to always go back to blues. Maybe its more the history behind my discovery of the music I don’t really know. I just know when I hear it, it just feels right if that makes any sense at all. This song is sang by the great BB King. If you have never listened to any of his music I encourage you make a point to hear it and give yourself the opportunity to feel it. This song I want to share is called “Sweet Sixteen”. the lyrics are very moving when read but it don’t mean a thing until you actually listen to the song. This is a song that I have had in my play list now for I figure close to 3 yrs, have listened to it a thousand times I’m sure, but today I actually heard it.

When i first met you, baby

Baby, you were just sweet sixteen

When i first met you, baby

Baby, you were just sweet sixteen

You just left your home then, woman

Ah, the sweetest thing i'd ever seen

But you wouldn't do nothing, baby

You wouldn't do anything i asked to

You wouldn't do nothing for me, baby

You wouldn't do anything i asked to

You know you ran away from your home, baby

And now you wanna run away from old b. too

You know i loved you, baby

I loved you before i could call your name

You know i loved you, baby

Baby i loved you, i love you before i could call your name

Well, it seems like everything i do now baby

Everything i do is in vain

My brother's in korea, baby

My sister's down in new orleans

Brother's in korea baby

My sister's down in new orleans

You know i'm having so much trouble woman

Baby, i wonder, what in the world is gonna happen to me

You know i love you

And i'll do anything you tell me to

You know i love you

And i'll do anything you tell me to

Well, there ain't nothing in the world, woman

Babe, it ain't nothing

Nothing in the world i wouldn't do it for you

You can treat me mean, baby

But i'll keep on loving you just the same

You can treat me mean baby

But i'll keep on loving you just the same

But one of these days, baby

You're gonna give a lot of money

To hear someone call my name

Yes, sweet sixteen baby... sweet sixteen...Yes, the sweetest thing baby

The sweetest thing i ever seen

You know i'm having so much trouble, woman

Baby i wonder

Yes i wonder

Baby i wonder

Oh, i wonder what in the world's gonna happen to me

My only question is, who was it directed towards??

May God bless you all and keep you safe

Gem ;)

Post #100/new doors/and the important things in life

All is well in my world on this glorious Friday night. I have pretty much given up on work. Inventory is Thursday and the store is no where ready for it and none of the management seems to care and most everyone else has the same attitude, I think its about time for me to stop making myself sick worrying with it. It will come and it will go and its not like they can take your first born child or anything, no need in making myself miserable over it. Ok with that said and done we shall get to the important things in life……BASEBALL!!! Can I get an amen out there…lol.. We had our first summer league game tonight. Thought we was going to get to play on both teams in the tourney but we was told late last night that we wasn’t going to get to. So my boy decided to play for his school team which is the travel team we are on. His other coach was a little disappointed that he wouldn’t play for them, but he had to make a decision and that was what he decided and I stood behind his decision. We barley have enough for a team to begin with and then one of the boys was out sick tonight so that made us have to play with only 8 kids. I thought the umpires was going to not let us play, but the man over the tournament said to let us play, so play we did. It was a really great game, the boys played there hearts out. A young bunch of kids, my boy is the oldest on the team, but they really looked sharp tonight. The final score ended up being 7 to 3 in favor of us. My young man had three RBI’s and scored three runs. He is the first baseman on this team and made a couple of really impressive plays. For the other team he is there primary pitcher. He’s not the strongest pitcher in the world, but can hold his own for a few innings. Ok maybe mom is just a little proud of her boy, but what can I say…he is my only one and I honestly couldn’t ask for a better kid than what he is. He makes straight A’s in school, he does well in sports and would help anyone without thinking twice. don’t get me wrong, he is a 12 yr old boy (soon to be 13) and has plenty of time to screw up and he is a little shit, but so much of that is just expected. Anyway the day went fine and the night was great. Had the opportunity to speak with a friend tonight finally, we played phone tag for a little while but was finally able to connect, so all is good. We will be back at the field at 10 in the morning ready to hit it again and then our third guaranteed game is scheduled for 5 tomorrow evening. If we win that one, we will play in the championship on Sunday I guess, not real sure how the bracket is laid out. Anyway I’m sure you will hear all about it when its said and done.
Well sounds like the washer is done, better get the uniform in the dryer and take my happy ass to bed. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Take care
And Gob bless you and your loved ones

Gem ;)

Oh and incase anyone is interested..this is post number 100
Yee haw!!!

You learn

Artist:
Alanis Morissette
Album:
Jagged Little Pill
Title:
You Learn

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)wait until the dust settles
Chorus
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
Repeat Chorus
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend
Repeat Chorus
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn


God bless

Gem ;)

Its all good

Good evening to all. Well Tuesday has come and is almost gone and it has been a very good day for me. Work pretty much still sucks but inventory will be over soon and everything will calm back down and my nerves will be back in check. I shared some really exciting news with a friend tonight and he unfortunately was not as excited about it as me. Well I’m not going to hold my breath on anything, I have about learned that by now, but anyway guess time will tell all….anyway all is good in my world, I found a riding course that I plan on taking probably the 5th and 6th of May and then will begin my search for a bike. I might have one found, but not sure if that’s what I want yet. Guess I will just have to look around and see what I like and what feels good to me and go from there. Well think I will call it a night.

My God bless all the friends and families that have been affected by the tragedy at Virginia tech.

As I have said once and I’m sure will say many more times in the future, don’t take life for granted. None of us know when we will draw our last breath. Love your family with all your heart and make sure they know it at all times.

Gem ;)

Between two closed doors

Greetings to all. A long week it has been in my simple little world. Things are good all and all but stress is about to get me. I have had a couple of ulcers come up in my mouth the last couple of weeks due to stress, kind of makes me wonder what the inside of my stomach looks like. Oh well it will heal like everything else, all I need is a little time. I do have a vacation coming up soon and the closer it gets the more I seem to look forward to it. Summer baseball is in full swing, and of course mom couldn’t me happier. Not sure how I’m going to keep up, but I’m sure I will figure it all out. We didn’t have enough boys at our school to make up a summer team in my sons age group so we decided to go to another town to play league ball. Then our little travel team pulled back together so guess we will be doing that also. It works out ok, the league plays during the week and then the travel team will be hitting it on the weekends. We hear we will be playing a lot in Durant this year with the travel team, but also planning on doing the Dale City and Bixby tourneys also. I cant wait, its going to be a great season for the boys. And sometime in there I will be taking the course to get my motorcycle license. Another thing I’m really looking forward to. So busy busy, but that is not a bad thing at all.
I want to send thanks out to my friend Brad. That was a very nice comment you left on my blog. Thanks for the support you have shown me, even though your sure I don’t listen to anything you have ever said. I do hear a lot and I know I will be ok.

The door
by Gem

Standing in the dark behind a closed door
I know in my heart there has to be more.
Here I have had much time to think
Alone in the dark, I fear to blink.
How many doors have I missed over the years
Staring at the closed one through all the tears.
How do you tell a heart when not to love.
How do you tell your mind who not to think of.
Standing in the dark so many feelings come to light
It has brought in me such a fight.
Has it all been a waste
Was the pain worth the taste
Of a love so true
Yes it was, for I adored you.


God bless you all
Gem ;)

Time

I never ask for anything that cost a dime,
all I wanted was a little of your time.
days would come
nights would pass
now I know not to even ask.

Gem ;)

Freedom

Into the wind you wish to ride.
With no one standing at your side.
A life alone is what you desire.
As my dreams come under fire.
A beautiful soul i have seen.
But lately you seem so mean.
In my heart i know its your way of pushing me away.
For i know you cant deal with me each and every day.
A world of happiness i wish for you.
Freedom and peace i know you shall pursue.

what hurts the most

Artist:
Rascal Flatts
Album:
What Hurts the Most
Title:
What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me

There are days

Every now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close

And having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what i was tryin to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go

But i'm doin it

It's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone

Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret

But i know if i could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken

What hurts the most, is being so close

And having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what i was tryin to do

What hurts the most, was being so close

And having so much to say

And watchin you walk away

And never knowing, what could have been

And not seein that lovin you

Is what i was tryin to do

not seein that lovin you

that’s what I was tryin to do…

after 3 years i give up

I quit.......fuck it, you win.........

Happy Easter

Yes I am still living
Yes I am still stressed
Yes I am still in love….lol..
Nothing different from the last three years.

Sorry feeling a tad bit sarcastic, but in good humors for the most part. don’t really have anything to write about tonight, just wanted to let all my like 3 readers know that I’ve not died or anything.
Looking at getting a bike soon however, gas prices are killing me. They pay me just enough at work to buy gas so I can go back and work more, it’s a vicious cycle…..lol….. Anyway I’m so very excited about learning how to ride. My sister is the last person that I would have ever imagined on a bike. She was always miss perfect and never done anything. Well she bought one out of the blue and learned how to ride a couple years ago and just loves it. I’ve wanted to for a very long time and I have some very dear friends that ride so that makes me want one even more, so I can go play with them..lol.. Anyway hope to get one soon and then the fun will begin.
Well I’m going to bid you all good bye.

God bless you all and keep you safe.
May you treasure the time you have with your family and loved ones during this joyous holiday weekend. Remember what its all about.

I send out my love

Gem ;)