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A simple country girl with a different way of thinking at times. never be suprised at what comes from me.

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Location: hugo, oklahoma, United States

Im a simple country girl that is a bit nontypical

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Seduce my mind and you can have my body, Find my soul and Im yours forever.





To Sir: my Mentor, my Friend

How do i ever thank you
for your time?
for opening my eyes to the ache inside

How do i ever thank you
for helping me see
that i can live out this need that burns inside of me

How do i ever thank you
for touching my soul
and that your faith in me has made me feel whole

How can i ever thank you?
by telling you how grateful to you i am, and how adored you truly are.
Thank you for showing me ..."girl"...she lives and you showed me her.

Happy HNT!!!

Gem ;)

Dare to "believe" and set yourself free

Dear Lord, is it Friday yet???? Uuumm nope I just checked, however it is hump day and yet still no one to hump..lol…wtf am I doing wrong here.. Well I finally made my way to the doctor today, I got poked and prod around on until they determined that I am still alive, modern technology just amazes me sometimes..lol..oh and I want to pass on a little bit of advise, anytime you have an option of getting a tetanus shot in the arm or the hip, I strongly suggest you take it in the hip, but hey that’s just my opinion for what its worth. Well not a lot going on in my direction today. I am very excited about the weekend coming up. Me and a few of my friends are going to see lynyrd skynyrd and .38 special in concert Friday night. Not sure what the rest of the weekend has in store, I hope to go on a little road trip north a few miles, but not going to get my hopes up. If it happens that would be wonderful, but if not then so be it, life goes on, there will be more weekends ahead…
Well I’m going to bring this to a close, but not without a little poem I found. I need to get in gear and write one of my own, but it didn’t happen tonight. Sending it out to my “tumbling dice” where ever he might be, always in my thoughts and forever imbedded in my heart..….


Believe!
© by AngelWinks

You make me blush
You make me smile
For one of your hugs
I'd walk many miles.

You make me laugh
Give me happy tears
When I'm with you honey
I lose all my fears.

I'm not sure you know
Just how much I do care
Every day in every way
I love all that we share.

My only wish today
Is a special one, my dear
I wish for you to talk with me
And lose your deepest fears.

I'll honestly never hurt you
Honey don't you see...
Your heart already knows that
Won't you please believe in me?!


God bless you all

Gem ;)

Monday, September 25, 2006

A weekend in the life of a simple little blonde

Well the day is coming to an end. It was a very busy day for me at work and then after work I went and walked my 4 miles. I slacked last week so I’ve got to get my ass back in gear and get back on track. The weekend was great. Friday when I got off work, I came home and picked up my boy and we got all our stuff together and headed to my moms. Of course had to stop at my favorite pawn shop when we got into town, I’m somewhat of a pawn shop junkie. My first hit is the gun display and then make my way to the jewelry, next thing I know, I hear guitars, so then I know my son has managed to find them. Bless his heart, he wants to play so bad. My mom has already bought him one for Christmas, now I’ve got to get around and find someone to give him lessons. Anyone with such an interest in something should not be held back from it. At first I thought it was a phase, but this has been going on for sometime, so I think its time to take it serious. He is showing a love for music and this is very pleasing for me. Music is a huge part of my life, I only wish I was gifted in it. Well being I’m not maybe I will be lucky enough that my son will be. One of my best experience in life was watching a friend play one time. Cant describe the feeling it gave me. Was so awesome to watch him play songs that we have discussed in great depth so many times, it truly gave new meaning to them, thank you for sharing with me :x. Ok so I managed to get a little side tracked from my weekend story, let me regroup here…lets see, we finally made it to moms and I was shocked to discover my sister had been messing with my moms computer and had done some altering to the programs. Needless to say she jacked with my communications to the outer world..lol..yes she deleted yahoo messenger..lol.. Well as tragic as it might sound, the world didn’t come to an end, I had my phone..lol… you people just don’t understand, trust me..lol.. Well I was able to communicate with “tumbling dice” himself so life was ok. Anyway managed to make a few plans for Saturday so that was great. Got to his house pretty early Saturday morning and we loaded up and headed for OKC, always a great trip. And I got to fondle his AK-47...lol..ok maybe some of you guys don’t understand it, but those of you that do, I’m sure you can feel me….well I have to admit that it was a little disheartening, I did not do nearly as well with it as I felt I should have. This is not my favorite gun nor my gun of choice. A nice little gun, don’t get me wrong, but ill take the AR-15 over it any day of the week. Its just a much more comfortable gun to shoot all around. Well I managed to get my little short fat fingers on the Glock 9mm. Not a bad little fit I have to admit. I done ok with it until I decided to back the target up a little ways, it really bothered me that I didn’t shoot a tight group at that distance, and then I had things explained a little differently to me. Was told that it is for self defense and its not really self defense if I’m shooting at someone that’s 25 or 30 yards away…lol…so I guess he had a point. If nothing else it made me feel a little better, he has a way of doing that from time to time. Well we finished up playing with the guns and looking around at the range at all the new guns and things. By the way if anyone ever has the opportunity to visit the H&H gun range in OKC http://www.hhgunrange.com/therange.asp I recommend it. it’s a really neat place to shoot, love the indoor range however it’s the only indoor range I’ve ever been to. But anyway they have lots of really nice thing, just the set up is fascinating to me. This probably shows how easily I am amused. Well we ended up going and eating at this nifty little Chinese place, ok it was a nifty big Chinese place. One of my favorite foods so this made for a great “reward” meal for me. Well we decided it would be a good plan to try and get out of the city before the traffic for the sooners game rolled in. well we almost didn’t make it out, I was off in la la land and I guess he was too and we almost had a wreck. He managed to save the day, thank God, but it was all good in the end. We made it back to the house and watched a couple of movies, one was really odd the other was pretty good. Well if you couldn’t tell, I had a really wonderful day, amazing how such a simple day can bring such a feeling of contentment. Well I finally came dragging back in to moms about 10 or so that night and spent the night with her again. We all went shopping on Sunday, I have learned I have a new problem. At one point in time in my life, well actually most of my life, I have hated to shop for clothes. Well Sunday everything I tried on fit and I liked, I was like dear lord mom this is not good. So I managed to pick a couple of outfits out and put the rest back. We actually had a good day Sunday, normally me and my mom don’t get a long the best. So I have to admit, this was actually a really great weekend for me. Very tiring but well worth it all. Well I guess I will wrap it up for the night. I figure if you have made it this far, you pretty much are amused as easily as me….we should form a club, ya think..lol..

Well my God bless you all and keep you safe in your ventures.

Oh got to share a thought of the day, almost forgot, that would have been tragic.


It doesn’t matter where you go in life. It’s who you have beside you that makes it worth while.

Thank you again for the time shared, always treasured.

Till we meet again

Gem ;)

Friday, September 22, 2006

Is life complete without guns and dogs?

I want to thank everyone for stopping by and visiting my blog for HNT and thank you guys for leaving the comments, its always nice to get a little feedback from people.
Its finally Friday morning, I’m having my typical oatmeal and fresh peach for breakfast putting off getting my day started. Looks like it might be a fun weekend. I’m going to head to my moms this evening when I get off work and get my munchkin picked up after school. She lives about 75 miles west of me, this is how we get a long as well as we do..lol.. Well talked to my “tumbling dice” last night, looks like we might get to go and fondle his AK-47 and AR-15 for a little while on Saturday. I’ve never got to handle the AK-47 but love the little AR-15. I have really short arms and its great, I can adjust the stock to where it actually fits me, probably the only rifle that I have ever shot that actually fits my arms. He also has some kick ass sights put on it, makes it seem like it takes very little skill to shoot it. I’m far from good with it, don’t get me wrong, but I can hold my own. Wouldn’t be ashamed to shoot with anyone. And of course we cant leave out his sweet little 9mm’s. What gun enthusiast would be complete without a nice little 9 to tote. Ok incase some of you haven’t figured out, I have a slight interest in various firearms and I’m a avid supporter for the right to bare arms. Anyone that thinks a gun kills has a misconception of how it all works in my opinion. A gun can be as safe as a hammer if used correctly or a hammer can be just as deadly as a gun if used with deadly force. You must understand and respect anything or it can hurt you. Guns have got a bad wrap in my opinion just like I feel the pit-bull has. Its all a matter of the handler as to what happens. The breed in itself is no more vicious than your typical little lap dog. There are probably more actual dog attacks that come from Poodles and Chihuahua’s than from Pit-bulls, but the strength that the pit has and the way the breed is mishandled is going to inevitably cause the breed to diminish if not become totally obsolete. I just ask anyone to be open minded about the world around them and see the forest beyond the trees before you condemn things that everyone tends to assume is just dangerous. I feel guns have a place in society as long as they are not mishandled. And I know that I’m not the only one out there that will stand up and protect our rights to protect our families, it will be a cold day in hell before someone comes in and takes my guns. Ok maybe its time I step off my “soap box” now..lol.. When I have a strong passion about something, that’s just how it is and I’ll stand behind it with all my heart…

Feel fee to leave a comment, would love to see what other peoples opinion is on my little topic for the day.

May God bless you all and keep you safe.

Gem ;)

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

HUMPDAY!!!

Well its officially hump day one more time and still no one to hump…lol..damn the luck…What is great about hump day is we are half way to the weekend..lol.. Well ok, I know its got to be an exciting thing for some folks. Not a lot to talk about, work is going fine, I’m still below my milestone mark, so I guess its official now. The best part is, I might actually get to have my celebration now, if I “hold” my mouth just right anyway..lol…I think I better move onto my HNT photo , hope you guys like









Thought of the day:

Plant a little love,
watch a miracle grow.

God bless

Gem ;)

Monday, September 18, 2006

Lifes little ups and downs

Well once again I’ve been slacking on the blog. Hope the blog Gods don’t strike me down or something..lol
We are no longer undefeated…lol…lost both games on Thursday last week so we packed it up and called it a night. It amazes me how that was the same bunch of boys that played on Thursday as it was on Wednesday. Wednesday they could have beat any high school team around, and Thursday the local T-ball team could have spanked there ass…lol…
Well the weekend has come and gone. It was like an emotional rollercoaster for me. Had some really high times and some rough curves. For the last year and a half I have been totally engulfed and living in constant confusion. Here while back I blogged about thinking my heart had come to a crossroads so to speak and maybe finally agreed, well maybe that has happened, but I cant say it’s the conclusion I was expecting. I have met some truly wonderful people in my time. Met people that I’m sure would have been wonderful to me, but I’ve always had one primary obstacle that stood in the way. Well this weekend some earth shattering things have taken place, wish me luck and I shall keep you all posted.….
The poem I am sharing today was one of the first that I had written. I can only write when something in my life has moved me. This was written after an encounter with the man that I can honestly say holds my heart in his hands. The ups and downs we have had and I’m sure will continue to have is beyond compare. A man that brings out every emotion I have in me, from love to hate. He told me one time you can only hate someone you truly love. Well this is for you, my “tumbling dice” my God be with you…..

Untitled
By Gem

I came to you on a crisp July morn
as you look upon my flesh I feel adorn

We are mere strangers but my body you know so well
my mind you have fondled so many nights I cant tell

Your presence is that of no compare
your touch engulfs me like the warm summers air

Waves of pleasure envelope my being
my heart is disabled, my mind knows I should be fleeing

I see nothing but love in your eyes
as the lust I feel can not demise

Fingers so strong strum from my body a beautiful song
a suckle so warm I hunger to be there all night long

As evening falls and pleasure ends I know what I must do
amazing how such solace can make a heart so blue

This day was unlike none the rest and how could I have any regret
I saw a kindled spirit, felt passion from the most wonderful man I've ever met.

Your in my dreams, always in my heart even though we must be apart

With this I bid adieu
as I hope you felt my pleasure too.


May God bless each of you and keep you safe in your daily ventures

Gem ;)

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Still undefeated

Well wonderful news from greater southeastern Oklahoma. It would be hard to beat this beautiful day we have had today and I was fortunate enough to be able to enjoy it while watching baseball, folks does life really get any better than this? The boys looked awesome today and won the first game of the tournament 12-1. We go back tomorrow for the finals, just hope the weather is as great tomorrow as it was today.
Well I don’t have a true HNT picture for this week, but I do have a couple that I took while goofing off I thought I might share. Hope everyone has a happy HNT, maybe next week I will do a better job and get a good HNT picture…

Would like to share my thought of the day:

Yesterday is history….
Tomorrow is a mystery….
Today is a gift
That is why we call it the
Present

May God bless you all, keep me in your prayers so He may help guide the way.

Gem ;)







Monday, September 11, 2006

"Seeing things for the first time"

Well I really have been slacking the last few days on my blog, for that I want to apologize. It has been a very busy weekend for me, cant say it was productive, but mentally and emotionally it could be one of the most important and critical weekends I’ve had in many many moon. I’m not sure, but I may have come to the realization that I’ve been waiting for, for so very long. Is it possible, has my heart caught up with my mind finally???? This answer and a few more will only come with time, stay tuned and I’ll be sure and give you the play by play..lol.. Well its another Monday and the work week is less than an hr from kicking off one more time. My little man has a baseball tournament starting wed of this week, so momma has ask for a little time off to go see the guys play. I’ve not missed a game in um well since he was in T-ball and now we are in junior high baseball, don’t know how many that adds up to but it’s a couple. Anyway don’t plan on missing them now J. I want to share with you one of my favorite songs that helped me get beyond my true love with the help and support of my best friend, don’t think I would have ever made it with out you. To my “tumbling dice” never forget how you have impacted my life and always know I will love you with all my heart no matter what the future holds in store for me…

I find it hard to shed a tear
You brought it all on yourself my dear
Wrong, yes i may be
Don't leave a light on for me
'cause i ain't comin' home
It hurts me baby to be alone
Yes, it hurts me baby

A hundred years will never ease
Hearing things i won't believe
I saw it with my own two eyes
All the pain that i can't hide
And this pain starts in my heart
And this love tears us apart
You won't find me bent down on my knees
Ain't bendin' over backwards baby
Not to please

'cause i'm seeing things for the first time
I'm seeing things for the first time, oh yeah
I'm seeing things for the first time

In my life, in my life

I used to dream
Of better days that never came
Sorry ain't nothin' to me
I'm gone and that's the way it must be
So please i've done my time
Lovin' you is such a crime
You won't fine me down on, on my knees
Won't fine me over backwards baby
Just to please

'cause i'm seeing things for the first time
I"m seeing things for the first time
Seeing things for the first time
Oh i'm seeing things for the first time
Yeah, seeing things for the first time
I'm seeing things for the first time
Yeah, i'm seeing things for the first time
In my life, in my life


I don’t think truer words have been spoken;

“They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
An hour to appreciate them, A day to love them,
And an entire life to forget them.”

May God bless you all and keep you safe

Gem ;)

Friday, September 08, 2006

God bless

Well Friday has finally came and is almost gone. Not real sure why I look forward to the weekends so much, not much to look forward to when spending them alone. Blake is with his dad for the weekend so that leaves mom by herself one more time. I was fortunate enough to have a lovely dinner with a friend of mine this evening, its always nice to have a little company from time to time, whether it be all day long or instances that last a miniscule amount of time and fade away. Sometimes the greatest joys and pleasures of our lives can come from the most simple places. I so wish my dear friend could grasp hold of some of the simple pleasures he has in his life. He is a truly wonderful person but keeps himself buried in all his sorrows. I have done everything in my power to help, and I would do anything I could, but until a person wants it, nothing will change. I ask all of my couple of viewers to keep him in there prayers, pray that he can find strength to help guide him through the daily battles that life has to offer…….

When All Else Fails
When you're up against a struggle
that seems too big for you,
When your mountain seems too tall
to ever be removed,

Just set your eyes on Jesus
and go to Him in prayer,
Because when all else fails,
Our Lord is always there.

When your faith is all but crushed,
by Satan's evil schemes,
When nothing else remains in you,
but broken hopes and dreams,

Then set your eyes on Jesus,
and focus on His love,
Because when all else fails,
Our Father reigns above!

When your life becomes a struggle,
to even rise each day,
When prayers do not come easy,
you don't know what to say,

Just call the Name of Jesus
and worship at His feet,
Because when all else fails,
God's love for you runs deep.

When you call the Name of Jesus,
and ask Him to forgive,
When you come to Him for mercy,
that is what He gives!

So set your eyes on Jesus
and go to Him in prayer,
Because when all else fails,
Our Lord is always there!

- Author Unknown

Gem ;)

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Anything is possible


Well one more fun filled day is quickly coming to an end. This morning was one of the greatest mornings I’ve ever had, I surpassed my milestone mark, will give it a day or two to make sure its not a fluke before I partake in to much celebrating…lol….its almost like this has given me a second wind and has just boosted my will to continue on my track…well I don’t have anything exciting to really share tonight, but did find a nifty little quote I would like to pass along. Wish more people could understand this:

~The best and most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen or even touched.
They must be felt with the heart.~
By...~Helen Keller~


I want to send my love and support out to “tumbling dice” and his baby girl, you know I’m here if you need me…

May God bless and keep you all safe

Gem ;)

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Well today was another very productive day at work, I had better be careful or someone might get the wrong impression that I actually do my job up there..lol…this evening was great, I got to chat with an old friend, had not talked to him in close to a year. It was great to hear from him, we parted ways on not so friendly terms may moons back. He’s a great guy, our paths just crossed at the wrong time. It was really nice to catch up. The sad part is, my life has changed very very little since we last talked. Seems like I have the same struggles in my life today as I did a year ago….one day it will change and I’ll find new struggles…lol..anyone that knows me, realizes how much truth there really is in that statement..lol..well I’ve had about all the fun I can have for one day, guess I’ll call it a night so I can get it all started again at 4:45 in the morning, yee freakin haw..lol…but hey tomorrow is hump day, unfortunately no one to hump..lol..so dose that mean its technically considered hump day for me too??? Things that make you go hhmmm

May God bless and keep you all safe

Keeping In Touch© by AngelWinks
It's a beautiful day
All sunny and bright
And I'd just like to say
"Hey, how've you been?"
I'm sending warm thoughts
And good wishes, too'Cause I want you to know
That I'm thinking of You.I hope you're happy
And having a great day
Please don't forget thatI'm just an e-mail away!

Gem ;)

Monday, September 04, 2006

Another look through the window to my soul

Well today was a decent day at work. It was very productive so that always makes me feel good. I’m still holding steady on my weight, looking at breaking through my milestone goal this week…yee haw J …after work today me and one of my friends went walking, we put in a good brisk 4 miles, ass is dragging now but I know that its got to be done. Its wonderful to have the support of my friends, it can be the difference in accomplishment or failure. Well I don’t really have much to say tonight, the weekend was very difficult for me, just hope the week goes a little smoother. This is just one of those things I’m going to have to put in the Lords hands and let him help me through it.
I know you guys probably get tired of the poems I post, but I post want is on my mind at that particular time. People have different ways of expressing feeling, some through song lyrics which I have over the past couple of years learned to appreciate greatly. My outlet seems to be through poetry, I cant always write what I want to say but often I can find it in different peoples writings. Tonight this one sticks out to me, so thought I would share it….

Faith of the Broken Hearted
by Rinicat ©

The shattered glass of the mirror..
Broken pieces lying lifeless on the floor.
Each showing it's own little picture.
Reflected in each piece is a different me.
The me that trusts, loves unconditionally.
The me that hates, contempt for everything.
The me that feels too deeply..
The me in constant pain...
Impossible to imagine the wound of
the broken hearted
The pieces fail to show the pain.
The pieces that lash out in anger.
One's that cling in fear.
Shards that let go too soon...
Broken pieces that cry out in pain.
Each piece has a story to tell.
The piece that is me hides in fear.
Fear of Love. Trust. Pain of betrayal.
The inevitable hatred....
And the broken heart.

God bless you all

Gem ;)

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Memories and Blues

Well nothing earth shattering has happened today. Been a lazy day of wonderful music mixed with the occasional tear. I will always be grateful to “him” for introducing me to the heart felt world of blues music other wise I’m sure I would have never been enlightened to it all. I do regret never getting to see him perform with the band, but the private show I finally got was such a treat. Anyone that can honestly say they don’t like blues has something seriously wrong with them. If you don’t have a love for blues, you have never “felt” true music, it will touch your soul when nothing else can.

Memories
By Gem


Oh how I miss the days of thought
Feelings and emotions that only you brought.

I listen to songs that are close and dear to your heart
Bringing to me fond memories from out of the dark.

So many nights we followed the river down the highway through the cradle of the civil war
Awakening my spirit, touching my mind like no one had before.

Guiding me through the words until I found the meaning so true
Then awaiting ever so patiently for what the words meant to you.

So many days I would get disgusted and start thinking that your strange
When all you were wanting was a change.

To go under ground and get some heavy rest
From the life and people that you detest.

Your livin a dream, you on top
My mind is achin, lord it wont stop
that’s how it happens livin life by the drop.

Maybe one day your rest will come to an end
And you’ll come back into my life and make amends

Until then I shall set
Praying that one day I might get
One more moondance with you, my love.


Only if you needed somebody, the way that i need you

Gem ;)

Saturday, September 02, 2006

"A Moment" with no celebratioin

Well the last week has been wonderful for my weight loss. Have increased my walking dramatically and its really paying off. I’m within a couple of pounds of being at my milestone I’ve been waiting on for so long, however now i have no one to celebrate it with like I once thought I would. I still have a long ways to go before I hit goal but this was going to be a very special celebration, I was really looking forward to it. Well so goes life I suppose, you win some and you lose some . Just never really thought it would be like this. I have a very interesting poem that I can honestly say is one of my favorite works I’ve ever read. It may seem really odd to some and some may understand it. You would have to know me “personally” maybe to understand why its so fitting for me…none the less, it’s a very good piece of work and I wanted to share it with all that would like to read, hope you enjoy, maybe it will touch some ones life like it has mine.

A Moment
by Purity Corrupted ©

For a moment I was the blessed one.
I was the aim of his yearnings,
And I reveled as the focus of his attention.
I was the object of his desire.

For a moment I was the hunted.
The blood of his prey was on his lips,
And I lay wounded before him.
Vulnerable to the killing strike

For a moment I was his.
Wounded and waiting for my little death.
La Petite Mort.
He left. And I died.

Gem ;