All Stars!!

Well not just a whole lot to report to my huge fan club I have going on here..lol…actually not real sure why anyone even still drops by for a peek in my messed up world..anyway about the only thing exciting going on around here other than the fact I think we can officially say the drought is over and oh by the way, is anyone building a freakin boat around here..lol.. Is that we got a call today and my son has made the all star team. He is absolutely beside himself. Looks like we will be headed to Mississippi for a few days to play ball. This is the beginning of the little league world series. Not sure yet when we go down but I’m probably looking forward to it just about as much as he is. It is a real honor for him to be one of the few picked. I think they normally will pick 12 kids for the team out of all the teams in the league. So needless to say, if there is anyway for that boys head to get any bigger it has..lol..but I’m so proud of him, I will wait until after the games are over to burst his bubble and bring him back to reality. that’s just want mommas are suppose to do. Wish us the best of luck. I will keep “everyone” (I have such a big following..ha ha)posted as to how it all goes. Expect pictures as well, another thing mommas are suppose to do, just kinda part of the job. It will be a great time I’m sure, I cant wait.
Well guess I should bring this to a close. I want to say hi to all my friends, new and old. Hope to get around soon if the rains will let up and put a few miles on our scooters.

God bless

Take care and ride safe

Gem ;)

Last dance

As I set here in the wee hours of the morning, many things trickle through my mind. Anything from terrible times some of my friends are going through right now to the great times me and a friend have shared. What seems to always out weigh anything else are the struggles I have within my self. One day it may pass, but tonight its hitting home very hard. When I feel like this, I tend to do a bit of reading, normally it will be song lyrics or poems. Tonight it happened to be a little of both, but one particular poem caught my eye. Not sure if I ever shared it before, If I have I do apologize for the repeat. None the less it’s a very touching poem and I felt the need to share it tonight or better yet this morning with you all.

Last Dance
by Aingael ©

my eyes swell from the tears they shed
my heart aches from the words we have said
forever i shall feel the love i have in my heart
but still,'tis almost too much,
the the thought of being apart.
my mind is tired
my thoughts run wild
I feel so vulnerable, almost as a child.
I have no one to blame for life's outcome.
yet I just know what’s here inside is very dear.
my words won't come as id like for them to.
i can't clear my mind
of my thoughts of you
if the hands of time would only turn back
and, in my mind, i wish the unreal
my heart is breaking how do i stop the pain?
i know in my heart i must let you go,
yet my Best Friend i shall lose too.
i have many memories of the love we have shared
if only...
no, You knew i cared.
silence falls deep inside of me.
for id always thought it was meant to be.
all those precious memories i will keep wrapped up
with covers of love and stow away
hoping to share them with you again, someday.
time will lick and heal all these many wounds,
and God will see me through
So please forgive me
if i still have many thoughts of you.
the anger is hard to keep away
the love is greater, and soon wins out
for that is what these words are all about
and in this lifetime...well....maybe
if given a second chance, id save, just for you, one
last dance .

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Stay safe and my God bless you

Gem ;)

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair
You know you just keep me hanging round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown
And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Hidey hoe neighbors, hope everyone is having a good week. I’m feeling much better so its not been to bad for me. Glad to see the weekend roll around. I don’t have any earth shattering news or information to share tonight, just wanted to stop and say hi and share a couple of photos.
I came upon this rattle snake a few nights ago on my way home. Actually I was home but still in the road and there he was. Mind you I am actually a snake lover, but to have a rattle snake this size roaming around my house, I just couldn’t let it happen. So I managed to kill it and decided I would take some pictures. He hung off both sides of the tail gate just a little and had 9 rattlers and a button. To me this seemed like not many considering the size of the snake, but none the less that’s what he had. He was every bit as big as my upper arm (being a big girl, I have big arms). Anyway here are a couple of pictures of it. The one picture I tried to get from over the top of him so you could appreciate the diameter of his body.

Well guess I will bring it to a close, hope everyone has a wonderful and safe weekend….

Take care and God bless.

Gem ;)

Far away

Artist:
NICKELBACK
Album:
All The Right Reasons
Title:
Far Away

This time,This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love youI have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Get well soon

Hello to all, just so you know that I have not dropped off the face of the earth I thought I would stop in and say hey.
Have been a little busy with ballgames lately and just basically have not had a lot to talk about. I guess the most exciting thing going on with me right now is my scooter. The more I ride the more I like it. Still a little nervous but that lessons with each and every ride.
Well today has been a very dreary day for me. I have not felt good all week and today finally gave into it and stayed home from work and slept most of the day. Started taking some antibiotics yesterday, I have my oh so dreaded sinus infection that I seem to get ever so often especially when I get tired and run down, it never fails. I did get a message from my long time friend today telling me why he had not been in contact with me for the last little while. Found out he had been in the hospital which basically infuriated me, but not like there is anything I can do about it. If he had wanted me to know I guess he would have let me know. Its just a shame he doesn’t have room or time in his life for me, but I guess it is just something I have to learn how to deal with. I am just glad to know he is ok, I have been very worried for the past few days and I do pray for his recovery. No matter what has happened in the past or what will happen in the future, he will always mean a great deal to me and I will have a certain amount of love for him in my heart till the day I die. I’m not sure if everyone experiences something like this in there life but I can say that I have. My heart and soul has truly been touched by this man and it will affect me from now on. I am still as unsure today as I have ever been as to why he has had such an affect on me, all I know is that he has from the time we first talked and I can honestly say I think it I will feel it until the day I die, but if the feelings do not go both ways then all you can do is deal with it and know it will never be. So each day continues to be a struggle, but I guess that is what life is all about. It teaches us to be strong and to be a better person. No matter how bad it hurts at times, I will always be grateful that I have experienced what I have and have been given the opportunity to learn all the things I have.
It has been a very long time since I have posted a thought of the day. But I found this one and felt I needed to share it with you all.

Carve quiet spaces in
Your life and in the
Silence you will hear
The angels.

May God bless you and keep you safe in his arms.

Gem ;)